God's Tenderness...

It is so strange how God uses those near us to teach us the simplest lessons. Recently, I learned the tenderest lesson about God and how He views His children...especially me. I would like to share it with you.

Saturday morning, I took Tootsie Minimus outside for her morning routine. As she was walking across the grass she yelped. Immediately, she held her leg up and quickly advanced away from where she was standing. Yellow jackets were swarming. Tootsie stepped in a nest. They attacked leaving her harmed and injured. As soon as I heard her cry and beheld she was hurt I ran swooping her up in my arms. Then, I called her veterinarian. He stated to bring her in as quickly as possible. Keep in mind, Tootsie is still a puppy and weighs 2 lbs. soak and wet. She needed advanced care. She was taken in, thoroughly checked and administered medicine. Later, she was dismissed, sent home and supervised for the next 24 hours. The next day she went back to her normal routine. I admired her courage and sensed her caution. As her master, my eyes are always upon her. She’s so special. She has my heart and my attention.

Two days later, I thought about what happened. Suddenly, God spoke to my heart. He said, "Traci that is how I love you. Each day as you enter your normal routine, the enemy is lurking. Just like Tootsie, you can't always see him. Yet, he is present and waiting to attack. The moment he stings you, I react in the same manner. You see, I am always listening and can recognize and differentiate your cry. I watch and can tell by your behavior when something is wrong. Then, I run swooping you up in my arms and take you to a place of safety. I administer attention and provide healing. I also monitor and supervise with love until the crisis has ended. Then, I watch as you enter life and your daily routine. I admire your courage and am elated as you are aware and more cautious of your environment. As your Master, my eyes are always upon you. Tootsie is so special. I love her too. I love you even more. You also have my heart and my attention.” My friend, what an incredible glimpse and what an amazing picture of how much God loves us and is tender toward us. It is exactly Zechariah's song in Luke 1:67-79.

Finally, I have included a photo of Tootsie in her daddy's hands because this is only a glimpse of how we must view ourselves in HIS. I love the tenderness of that moment!

I Chronicles 13 - David goes to get the Chest of God.

I am studying the first book of Chronicles. I am in the 13th chapter. It is very interesting. David goes to get the Chest of God. Perhaps, this is a test in leadership? The first thing I observe is CHANGE! Something new is about to happen in David's life and walk as King. Israel is also involved in this transition. There is movement and God doesn't want us to miss the lesson! This passage is simply just another example of how things must be done God's way. Second, David invited all of Israel to participate in getting the Ark back to Israel. Keep in mind that the ARK was not in it's proper place in David's early kingship. The Ark of the Covenant was displaced for a span of twenty years. This span involved the time between bringing the Ark there and bringing the hearts of the people back to God, as apparently the people were very disheartened after their defeat and loss during Saul's rule. Honestly, there are times that the LORD isn't in His proper place in my life either. Mostly, because I am selfish or want to take the shortcut. Yet, as we continue walking life's journey I realize how important it is to get HIM back where HE belongs. This often takes time. Once I cooperate, the LORD brings my heart back to Himself and there is joy. Typically, it involves others walking with us. The Bible states, "How can two walk together unless they are in agreement. The scripture says David invited his men, family, relatives and Israel to get involved. He wanted their participation. He even asked the priest. Notice the order in which it took place. He reached out to his family and relatives first. My friend, we need the support of our family, relatives, especially our pastor and church. They partcipate in our story just as Israel participated in this particular chapter of David's life. The Bible states that everyone was in agreement because it seemed right and they wanted to be in the will of God. That's what we desire too as women. We want to be in HIS will. Third, when everyone is in agreement...there is unity. There is often singing, exuberant dancing and a parade. Yet, look what happens when things "appear" on the outside to be going great when God sees the heart of those on the inside. Disaster strikes! The singing ceased, dancing stopped and the parade was ended. Why? Because God gets right to the heart of the matter. He knows our past, present and where HE is leading and directing our future. Therefore, HE will interrupt us to make sure we walk the right path. Everything seemed to be moving right along until they got to the threshing floor and the oxen stumbled. AWE!!! The Threshing Floor! Do you remember the purpose of the threshing floor? It was used to SEPARATE the grain from the chaff. It involved a two-part process. The grain has to be freshly cut with the stalks spread out on the floor to dry before threshing to avoid mold. The stalks were then broken, walked over, beaten with heavy sticks and tossed up in the air with a winnowing fork. Then, the wind would blow the lighter chaff to one side, while the heavier grain fell into a pile, which was gathered. This is what is happening to David. It is a pivotal moment at the threshing floor. The good and bad is being separated in his life. God cut him, spread him out among the people, broke him, walked on him, beat him with a heavy stick and tossed his life up in the air with HIS winnowing fork. Why? So, that the wind (a type of the Holy Spirit) could blow the lighter chaff to one side, and allow the grain to remain separate. This reminds me of the prophecy found in Jeremiah when the LORD told Moab that He was going to turn their wineskins upside down and empty them out because their wine had settled in her dregs while not being poured from one jar to the other. The good had settled to the bottom. It's similar to drinking a glass of orange juice that hasn't been shaken before pouring. It taste bitter. The pulp has settled in the bottom of the carton. It lacks sweetness. Here, God is getting what has settled in the bottom of their lives out so that they can taste the good of what He has in store! He is separating some things before their very eyes. Now, we don't want to miss this either. BEFORE, God allowed the Ark to be put in it's proper place where HIS name was invoked (don't miss that) there was a delay...but, not a denial. God wants us to be in the place which invokes HIS name. However, we have to be living and walking in a right relationship with Him. Before I remind you of what happens next...remember, there were certain rules to carrying the ARK and handling God's treasures. He established the rules, parameters and boundaries for their protection. When those are broken, walked outside or violated, there are grave (literally) consequences. Those consequences come immediately! Why? Because God expects His covenants to be honored and respected. So, we read that the oxen stumbled. Uzzah places his hand on the ark to stabilize it in order to keep it from falling off the cart. It seemed harmless what he did. Yet, isn't that just like sin? Sin progresses. I like how one version paraphrases James 1:15 "We have no one to blame but the leering, seducing flare-up of our own lust. Lust gets pregnant, and has a baby: sin! Sin grows up to adulthood, and becomes a real killer." And that is what happened to David and Uzzah. Uzzah died because of his sin. God put rules and boundaries in our relationships to protect us. First, with God. Second, with others. Uzzah was fully aware of the consequences in touching the Ark. His decision also affected others. Especially, David! Again, both David and Uzzah knew better. They simply had their own way of doing things instead of following His rules. Failure resulted in immediate consequences. Here is what the passage says, "God erupted in anger against Uzzah and killed him because he grabbed the Chest. He died on the spot—in the presence of God." David lost his temper and grew angry because God exploded against Uzzah. David wasn't thinking of God...his focus was on Uzzah and also himself. So, God had to change his focus and perspective. Look at the comment he made, "How can I possibly continue this parade with the Chest of God?" He wasn't worried about the offense as much as continuing the parade. Does that sound familiar? I can't tell you how many times I have departed from God's Word, moved out on my "better way", then been "displeased" with God because things did not work out as I planned only to find that it wasn't really all that petty to do it God's way! God's way was protecting me! Besides, who was at greatest fault here, Uzzah or David? After all, David placed Uzzah in the predicament. Both men knew. Both men bore the responsibility. Do you know what God is trying to get us to see? Things MUST be done God's way in our lives instead of the "Traci Alexander" way. If not, God will certainly intervene. Invention is almost always a part of our story and growth. We have to admit and acknowledge that error can cause others to error too. Our response? We get angry too just like David! Good thing that God is patient and will allow a time of healing so we can figure out what to do next. Talk about a maturing time. God re-arranged some things! First, the placement of the Ark. I wonder if David became a spectator of Obed Edom's house during those three months? Can you imagine his thoughts? He missed the blessing. Perhaps, God allowed this for several reasons. One, because God demanded reverance and respect. He received it in Obed Edom's home. Remember, judgment had taken place and David was terrifed. He went from singing and dancing to mourning and planning a funeral. Two, because David needed to figure out what to do next with himself and with his relationship with God. Secondly, there was some things David needed to learn as King. God is such a gentleman in how He teaches us. This lesson was to mature HIM and life experience transfers knowledge to wisdom. Finally, this chapter ends with a delay...but, NOT a denial. Indeed, there is an interval of time that occurs. So, what happens next? We read Chapter 14! It states that David began to build. My heart leaps in that. The Word states that God confirms some things in David's life and his kingdom. He also blesses his home and his family flourishs. His prayer life increases. His experiences are increase His faith. His kingdom expands. Yet, it didn't come without the enemy's attack and constant conflict. I urge you to go read the next few chapters. We find David builds a new home and with it comes the passion to get God's Ark back to Jerusalem. This time, David is fully aware and sensitive to GOD's commands. He also performs them to the letter. I believe that His thoughts become God's thoughts. David's ways become like God's ways. Honestly, that is what He's after in all of us. Here is proof! The Bible says, "After David built houses for himself in the City of David, he cleared a place for the Chest and pitched a tent for it. Then David gave orders: "No one carries the Chest of God except the Levites; God designated them and them only to carry the Chest of God and be available full time for service in the work of worship." Samuel said it best...to obey is better than sacrifice. There is a reward for doing things God's way.

From Beginning to End...Ecclesiastes 3:1-11 NIV

It is now days after the retreat. I am still smiling at all the things the LORD accomplished. I do hope that you viewed the report from Judy Mize on our website – http://mylonn.com/HeartsMoving.aspx. If not, please follow this link for viewing. She really says it best!

Some of you may remember the last words that I sent you in a letter. I quoted the following passage from Proverbs 21:30 that says, “Do your best, prepare for the worst – then trust God to bring victory.” I asked for you to notice the comma and the dash. At the time, I was honestly living at the dash and clinging to the word “THEN.” Yet, I am very anxious to report the victory. Well, LADIES…I have lots of “victory” to report!

First of all, I want to report this news step by step so that you can process what the LORD did at this retreat. Plus, I want to give HIM every ounce of credit due HIM. Thursday, we arrived on campus. My car had problems early on. We had to end up having it towed early in the week. This happened before we even departed for Callaway. Yet, we got it repaired just in time. It drove beautifully. Then, as we parked to unload the Jeep on campus…it completely stopped. Not even a budge! So, Stephen and Henry Mack took a hammer and tapped on the starter. All of a sudden, it started right up! Problem solved. Yet, nerve wrecking because we had previously spent over $400 in repairs on that particular Monday. Satan attempted delaying us from arriving to our destination. Yet, again…we experienced God’s Faithfulness arriving and departing. Thank goodness it happened early on and not as we were traveling! We could worry about the starter once home.

Secondly, Teddy was very sick. We think he either got into something outside or either he had some type of virus. We felt terribly sorry for him. He had vomiting and diarrhea for two days before we left. So, this became another challenge in departing. We prayed. Then, I called Callaway Gardens to inquire of their pet policy. They allow pets at their facilities as long as they are 20 lbs and under. Teddy Maximus qualified. So, we wrapped him up and took him with us so we could monitor him. Again, we experienced God’s Faithfulness in the matter. You know what that Teddy is to me!

Next, we walked through the main gardens and waited in the patio area enjoying the beauty and evidence of the season. SPRING was definitely in the air. All I could think of was Ecclesiastes 3:1 “To everything there is a season.” This was the season we had been anticipating and hoping for. The moment had arrived and I was sick, sick, sick! Again, we prayed. God was completely faithful. Ladies and gentlemen had been praying ahead of time for my physical condition. So, I felt just fine and had even regained my voice and strength.

Next, we arrived to our room. We were appearing a little fatigued from the day. It had been quite the week. Suddenly, I opened the door to our room and there was the most beautiful flower arrangement awaiting us. When I opened the card it read, “We love you! – Special Friends.” What a complete surprise and blessing! My two most faithful friends and warriors were preparing the way ahead of me. I felt like God was smiling and saying, “SURPRISE!” Here is the way…walk in it.

Later, we were relaxing and preparing for bed when it hit me that we had not prepared the SPEAKER’S bags or VOLUNTEER gifts for their rooms. We were told to have them ready before 10:00 am so that the bellman could pick them up for delivery the following morning. So, at midnight Stephen and I were up wrapping gifts. They turned out lovely. We had 5 speakers bags, 2 individual gifts for corporate at Callaway and 20 volunteer gifts. I don’t think we had seen so much tissue and ribbon. Yet, what fun! Again, God was faithful to remind us before the next morning! I love when HE prods us.

Friday morning arrived! We received several messages that a couple of our volunteers were not going to be able to make it after all. We were going to be short in assisting our speakers and somewhat lacking with greeters. It seemed as though we were being hit on every side. Satan was doing everything to distract us. So, we prayed. AND???? Once we arrived to our work stations on Friday morning one of our volunteers brought three extra friends who made up for the shortage. Again, what a surprise to watch God in action! He already knew and showed Himself faithful!!!!

That morning, we were praying over the entire facility. Our team of volunteers began decorating the ballroom. They were preparing the individual retreat gift bags for each attendee. We were arranging the round tables with flowers and beautiful décor. One of our volunteers (Sandra) had even made a beautiful curtain to go across the stage to help with lighting and staging for an intimate setting. It turned out to be very inviting and lovely. I couldn’t have been more pleased. I am certain that it pleased the LORD. He saw their hearts!!!

So, as you can read…everything was on course. My friend, I can’t begin to tell you how excited we were. We were standing at the door waiting for our speaker and attendee’s arrival. Our volunteers and vendors were in place and we were anxious to see what was in store.

Friday night’s service began with Babbie Mason leading us in praise and worship. It was divine! Then, Cindi Wood brought the opening message. She opened with an incredible story about vows - A E I O U. Then, the message grew in the WORD. Mrs. Wood is a sweet, bubbling, young lady, who is full of Christ.

Satan was so present that night. He wasn't stopping at nothing! There was such a spirit of heaviness that whole evening. It baffled me! Cindi poured her heart out to these ladies. Yet, we sense that her message was simply preparing the way for what was ahead. Friday night most of these ladies are exhausted from traveling, working and simply just getting there. So, we purposefully plan to make Friday the lighter evening. Yet, I went back to the room amazed. So, all we knew to do was pray against the work of the enemy. AND? Saturday AM we were ready to go!

Dee Brestin (who is from Kansas City) opened up with a powerful message from the book of Solomon. It seemed like all of our hearts came prepared. Perhaps, because so many new attendees they didn’t know what to expect or how to respond to an event like this. However let's just say our hair came down!

Later, we broke out into workshops. We have three segments of workshops throughout the day. The first workshop began at 10:30 am. There were various topics to choose from: The Friendships of Women, Splashing Living Water and The Frazzled Female. These women were screaming! Our second workshop began at 1:00 pm. There were other topics to choose from: The Three Legged Stool of marriage, Seven Ups For Living In An Upside Down World and The God of All Comfort. Our third workshop began at 2:30 pm. The ladies were able to choose from three different topics, which included: And God Sent Us A Helper, Keep Courting In Your Marriage and Too Blessed For This Mess. What a blessing!!!

My friend, there was a different kind of spirit that afternoon. It seemed to be over the entire Garden. It was evident in corporate, the Callaway staff, our vendors, speakers, volunteers, attendees, and just those who were peaking in to see for themselves what we were doing. All I could do is SMILE!

After the last workshop, we provide the ladies free time to go shopping in Pine Mountain, experience the Gardens, enjoy the spa and all other recreations. The trails at Callaway are great! Then, we assembled back around 7:30 pm.

Saturday evening, Jan Silvious began the evening with a message about the woman from Epharim who had courage and wisdom to do the impossible for God and His people. The passage is found in II Samuel 20:21-23. Then, she urged women to combine the courage and wisdom God has given us to do something impossible for God and His people. It was very inspiring. Plus, I had to do that very thing at this retreat.

Afterwards, I asked Jan and Babbie to be seated on stage where we had prepared to wash their feet. My friend and mentor, Carrie Gore, assisted in the service. It was something precious and something never done before. I was completely honored and humbled. Jan and Babbie spirit shown complete humility in what was taking place. Plus, this seemed to simply carry on the thought of that message.

My friend, the LORD had already prepared me back in October to serve them in this manner. He said, “Traci, if you want these women to understand our vision of this ministry…you must be the very first to minister and serve. You go and wash their feet in my name.” Enough said!

Afterwards, Babbie Mason began singing and there was reading of the Word. Several of us participated. Then, there were women who wrote out their testimonies on cardboards. The front explained their life before Christ. The back was proof and evidence of their life afterwards abiding in Christ. Talk about special! One lady stated she was addicted to drugs, sex and the world. Afterwards it read, “Addicted to Jesus.”

I am telling you! It made me jump up out of my seat. I was whooping and hollering! I was shouting AMEN! Then, I was crying!!!! I was completely beside myself. Especially when one pastor’s wife held a cardboard testimony that read “ADULTRESS” and flipped it over reading “FORGIVEN.” That did it for me! I was on my knees. Then, jumping up and down.

Women were rushing to the altar. Jan invited those who wanted to be anointed in oil to come forward. Sweet friend, they were standing down a long aisle – woman after woman. Jan looked at me. She whispered, “Traci, my greatest prayer was that the LORD would allow you to experience a blessing.” Well, He did! Even now, I am crying as I write this.

Friend, that was the pivotal moment! There were over 40 ladies who made public and various decisions for Christ. Even one lady for salvation! Those are just the ones that we know of. I am telling you…I couldn’t have been more excited.

Finally, we dismissed. I had to say the benediction. I couldn’t. I just said, “I’m a mess! I can’t pray. Let’s just say AMEN!” Then, I walked off the platform weeping at what the LORD HAD DONE again. So, were others.

Well, I didn’t think I was going to be able to sleep. Yet, when my head hit my pillow…I was gone! That had to be what David and Paul experienced. They slept. I did as well. It was a precious gift from God.

Sunday morning arrived! Esther Burroughs gave a lovely message on our heritage and what we leave behind. She spoke from the book of Psalms. She even tied it in with our theme, “THERE IS A TIME.” How appropriate to leave this retreat on that thought. This was certainly part of our ministry heritage!

Earlier, several women asked to give their testimonies. So, we allowed this. One lady even purchased a gift to give to another lady there who had shined like a diamond in her walk. On Friday evening, she stood in front of everyone and stated how she was struggling with her daughter’s murder. You never know whom God will bring to your retreat. Talk about brokenness. Talk about God connecting women and teaching them to minister to one another. We hit the bull’s-eye of God’s heart here!

Then, Carrie Gore got up and stated that the LORD woke her up early in the morning. She stated, “Traci has no idea what I am about to say or do. Yet, it’s time for us to have a Jesus come to meeting moment.” Then, she made a plea for women to partner with our ministry. She explained how we operated by faith alone. Afterwards, she felt led to take up an offering. I cried because I had no idea what God was doing.

As the women were giving and making pledges to partner with the ministry…a woman came and stood beside me. She said, “I need to speak with you.” I really couldn’t hear that well because of the music. She said, “Traci, God has been dealing with me. I finally know what I am suppose to do. I am making a challenge grant to “match the amount of money that these ladies have given today. Please let me know the total.” My knees buckled. She wrote it down on a piece of paper, along with her name, address and telephone number. I was completely speechless and made the announcement to the ladies. We were praising the LORD!

Okay - let’s go backwards. We were lacking in meeting our budget for this retreat. Yet, the ladies gave an offering of over $2,000.00. My friend, can I testify how FAITHFUL God has been to us? I needed a bottle to collect those tears!

Finally, we are coming to a close of the retreat. I asked Stephen to come forward. I needed to thank him for being a husband, friend and partner in this ministry. I explained how he blessed me back in October and how a lot of this weekend was his fault. I told the ladies that once the 2008 Fall retreat had ended – I remember asking him this question: “Stephen, what do you think the LORD wants me to learn these next six months and year?” He replied, “Oh, that’s easy! He wants you to learn HIS FAITHFULNESS!” I explained how I was thrilled and was so happy he didn’t say that God wanted me to learn patience. Yet, I explained the challenges and trails that accompanies FAITHFULNESS and I’ve learned it is similar to asking HIM for patience.

Next, I told the ladies about Stephen’s romantic side. Sometimes, Stephen will grab my hand and place it inside of his. Then, he will look at me and smile. I know what is coming. He wants to skip! It doesn’t matter where we are. It could be in the mall, grocery store, doctor’s office, etc. In the past, it would embarrass me. Yet, at that very moment…time stood still. I told him how much I loved him and asked for Babbie to close with a song. I grabbed his hand. I looked at him and smiled. No longer was I embarrassed. I said, “Let’s skip!” So, we kissed and skipped down the aisle. As we were skipping, I felt this urge to go grab Cindi Wood’s hand and ask her to skip with me. Secretly, she was praying that I would do so. So, we skipped around the ballroom. Then, we went and grabbed Jan’s hand. She replied, “I don’t know how to skip!” So, Dee Brestin grabbed her other hand and we went skipping too. All of a sudden, we heard women behind us giggling and praising the LORD. They were right on our heels – SKIPPING too!

There was singing, dancing, shouting, weeping and oh, so much joy! Yet, I want to share something more in depth. I want to show you how God brought this full circle from the beginning. As I created our website – I wrote a story about ALICE IN WONDERLAND. Here is what I wrote so that you will understand and remember.

It is funny how the silly tales by Lewis Carroll have become world famous, while the serious works of Reverend Dodgson are almost unknown! When the Reverend wasn’t making up nonsense tales for little girls, he spent his time, as a college professor writing and developing serious books on mathematics while Lewis Carroll became his pen name.

When I was a little girl, I was delighted by Lewis Carroll's enchanted fantasy of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. However, it wasn't until my thirties that I could appreciate His writings. In his writings, Alice asked, "Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?" "That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the cat. "I don't much care where-" said Alice. "Then it doesn't matter which way you go," -so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.

I've found myself asking the same question, "Which way I ought to go from here" often to settle with "so long as I get somewhere." Is this just a mere fable? Or, does it often become a part of life's story?

As women we find ourselves Balancing Life’s Demands with the scales tilted in the direction of being a daughter, wife, mother, sister, colleague, associate, friend, neighbor or care-giver. Similar to Reverend Dodgson, our identity transforms us into individuals more famous or popular than who God created us to be. Sadly, we leave behind the same kind of unknown legacy with few ever knowing our true identity.

I believe God created us to be a generation of godly women who impact the world. We CAN Balance Life’s Demands while at the same time leave behind a godly legacy. This is my heart’s cry and reason for creating this ministry.

Ladies, do you see how this all fits together? Leaving the legacy? God putting the appropriate people in our lives to help do that very thing. And??? This blew my mind…my friend stated that at the end of the fable…Alice leaves skipping. Who knew? Isn’t that amazing how God works ALL things together? We were skipping too.

Honestly, I am learning the word “Fathom” more and more. Yet, I yearn to see the ending of our FALL 2009 conference. Matter of fact, when I came home I was thanking God for all that was done. He said, “Oh, Traci! You just understood my beginning towards the word “fathom”…you haven’t reached the end. We still have another conference to go!” I jumped up and down.

As always, I have a point for you in this. I believe God is bringing things full circle for you too. He’s simply connecting the dots. He’s shifting, subtracting, adding and mulitply…even dividing things in our lives. He’s bringing people around in our lives that we probably never dreamed would happen. He’s showing us our strengths and weaknesses. He is bonding our relationships. Why? Because THERE IS A TIME for each one of us…including you too. HE has a BIG plan in all of this. It’s not just for naught or to sit idle. This time in your life is a season. The bible says He has a purpose for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

God says that he has seen the burden laid upon men. He also states that he has made everything beautiful in its time. He has already set eternity in your heart…yet, I am praying you experience that last phrase too! My friend you cannot fathom what God has in store from beginning to end. Nor can I for that matter!!!

I love each of you and this is HIS victory. Yet, I love how He let’s us get in on it. May GOD receive all the glory, praise and honor for the work HE accomplished at this retreat. Amen?! Thank you so much for being a huge part of our ministry and journey. You are such a strength to me.

Comfort or your faith???

Lately, I have been waking up at 5:15 am each morning to pray. A few days ago, I was praying and simply sitting still in order for the Holy Spirit to speak. My professor once said, "We must have equal time." Suddenly, my girlfriend's granddaughter called approximately around 7:00 am. I thought "something must be wrong because she NEVER calls me this early." So, I returned her call. She stated it was Brooklyn - who is 4 years old. We sat, talked and later began to pray. Meantime, as we were talking I became so cold because I was still lounging around in my pjs. The conversation ended. I went back to bed to get warm. I began praying silently again. I begin asking the Lord, "What is it exactly that I am suppose to be learning?" Instantly, the Holy Spirit used that experience to begin teaching me. Here is the lesson: When I was sitting talking to my friend my body became chilled. I couldn't concentrate on the conversation at times because I was thinking of how to get warm. I began multi-tasking. Although, I was listening to the conversation -I also began seeking remedies. For example... turn on the heat...grab a blanket...etc. Once I got into the bed and underneath the covers I became warm again. My thoughts were centered around praying. There were no distractions. I was fully concentrated. The Holy Spirit said to me, "Traci, that is the lesson God is wanting you to learn. When you remove yourself from OUR covering...YOU easily become distracted. You come up with your own remedy of how to 'fix' the situation. Even when we try to talk to you -you are so sidetracked that you only hear every other word. Oh, you are still there but, not wholeheartedly. Then, when you realize the condition you are in or what has happened you immediately put back on the covering. You are still. You listen intensely. You allow US to work -instead of YOU. We don't need you to find the remedy. We are the remedy. We aren't nearly as concerned about your comfort in the situation as we are your FAITH." Wow, what's important - Comfort or Faith?

Teddy's lesson about FAITH...

I wish everyone had a little Teddy Maximus. Sometimes, he can be quite the teacher. Teddy is small and weighs approximately 6-7 lbs. soak and wet. He is such a joy. Lately, I have learned a valuable lesson from him. I call it Teddy's lesson about FAITH. At night, I like to read in the bed. It's quiet and very relaxing. Yet, once he realizes that I am in bed...he rounds the corner, takes a leap and jumps high up on the bed - all by himself. He wants to join me. It is though he is saying, "Look, I am a big boy!" That's amazing because he doesn't even flinch at the height of our sleigh bed. He doesn't let anything intimidate him nor does he wait for an invitation. He is quite confident that it is alright. He just wants to be in my presence. At other times, Teddy comes to the side of my bed with this pitiful, long face. Immediately, he begins scratching the covers with his little paw. This lets me know that this time...he would like to be picked up and invited. I tell him, "Teddy, you can do it...just jump!" I encourage him. I pat the bed. UNTIL...finally, I pick him up. I suppose he just wants me to reach down, hold him, and let him know it's ok. Later, I think to myself...isn't that strange how some days he is so confident and other moments he lacks confidence and becomes so easily intimated??? Yet, I absolutely love that he simply wants to be with me and I never mind. Honestly, I am a lot like Teddy. Here is proof. As I pondered this...Jesus said, "Traci, you are a lot like this too. Some days, you speak to the mountain and shout with a loud voice...BE THOU REMOVED! Other times, you tend to beg, plead and cry for me to remove it. No matter how many times I tell you that YOU TOO can do it...I have to pick you up...hold you and let you know it is ok!" The great thing about this lesson is that God never minds either. He simply encourages me and reminds me that HIS Word states that it only takes a tiny mustard seed of faith. My friend, they say a dog is a lot like his MASTER. The great thing is that both of us just want to be with our owners!!!!

What is at the bottom of your river?

If the Old Testament is the New Testament concealed…then the New Testament is the Old Testament revealed. Recently, I have been reading and studying a particular passage in II Kings 6:1-7. It is a familiar story. Yet, very convicting when you ask yourself the question, “What is in the bottom of life’s river that the Lord needs to float up in my life?” Honestly, it could be a number of things as we Balance Life’s Demands. Some of us may be dealing with a health issue, sickness, diet, or proper fitness. Perhaps, we are having problems in our relationships, marriages, or with our children. What about our joy, happiness or growth? Perhaps, struggling to make that eternal or spiritual decision? Only God can help us pinpoint what’s at the bottom. Let’s just label it “X” for now. God can define what “X” is for you.

In this particular passage, there was an “ax” at the bottom of this river. You must read it. Here these men were strategically positioned right where they needed to be. They were Rigorous Students who were transitioning to becoming Righteous Servants based upon the relationship established between their mentor (Elisha) and those mentored (Sons of the prophets). Elisha was setting an example in order for his students to be an example. He began making an investment. After all, someone (Elijah) prior had made an investment in him. They were simply men mentoring other men. That reminds me of Jesus and his disciples. Old Testament revealed!

Next, I discover that reality sets in. These men realize that they must expand their ministry. However, in order to expand - they too must personally invest. So, they make a choice. A good one at that! They sense the urgency to involve others. Jesus did the same thing. He called his disciples to follow him and they did! Then, they rally round to change their homes, communities, villages and eventually the world! The disciples were like the sons of the prophets. They wanted to participate in the building of God’s kingdom. AND? They did. They went out from Jerusalem, Judea, Samaria and the outer parts of this world.

These men took personal responsibility. Instead of arguing who would go and work or simply allow Elisha to go alone…they declared, “Let us go and let us make.” They took personal pride and initiative. Now, those words "Let us Make" sounds familiar to what happened in Eden. Could it have been the difference between asking, “Lord, bless us to do this work!” or rather “Lord, allow us to be a part of what you are blessing!” Stephen taught me that lesson. I’m so glad.

My friend, it never fails that when you become busy doing something for the LORD…the enemy begins to wreak havoc. Something goes wrong. Now, let’s remember three things. First, they are right where they need to be. The Lord has strategically placed them. Second, reality hits and they catch the vision. Finally, these men decide they want in on it and become a part of the success. That’s what the disciples did too! (However, not without private challenges and setbacks.)

Notice as you read the passage it states “one man” was affected. Interesting isn’t it? All of them were working! Could it be the very one that asked Elisha to go? Was he tested? There was certainly a problem. His ax handle was detached and it prevented him from building. Then, he is so perplexed that he loses focus and begins to cry. He’s crying that his ax head is lost. So, he begins to offer a plea to Elijah exclaiming how it was borrowed and makes a personal commitment to do something about it! You know, that is what happens when we become detached while building. Progress stops. We lose our focus. We begin to cry. We begin concentrating on what has been left in our hand and what now remains at the bottom of our river. Then, we either chose to make a personal commitment to do something about it or walk away and let it remain.

I’m guilty! I get sidetracked. I forget that I am representative of the wooden handle that has been detached from the strong iron. Quickly, I lose strength and power. The question is - do I want it back bad enough or do I simply allow it to remain in the river? This man certainly had a plan and he was committed to it. So, he asked for help. This ax had value - not only for himself, but also to the owner.

Honestly, I think that is how Jesus seen his disciples. At times, they too were disconnected. Yet, he looked past their humanity and valued their worth. Now, I didn't say He looked passed our sins. No, Jesus died for those so that He could reconcile our matters too. He understood how important these twelve ordinary men were to the owner (God the Father).

Well, thank goodness the story doesn’t end there! Next, we behold the redemption of that which was lost at the bottom of the river. It didn’t come without a personal confrontation though. Elisha asked him where it went and with confrontation comes confession. He showed him the place. Now, he wasn’t angry because it was lost. No, this prophet helped him find it. I love that about God. He knows our condition and confronts us head on asking us the same hard question. Where did you lose it? Show me the place. Talk about a concise plan though! This man was getting ready to witness the power of God in his life. Although, this situation was completely out of his control - it wasn’t out of God’s. God was going to complete that work in which He had already begun. He had the exact same plan and passion with his disciples too. Us too!

Don’t quit on me now…it’s getting better. This man’s participation was critical. He had to reach out, place his hands upon it and grab it out of the river. He’s now identified with this ax and the problem has been reconciled. That which was at the bottom of the river is on top and put to use! He didn’t just walk off and leave it there. No, I imagine he began chopping trees more effectively and efficiently. I love that it says..."HE TOOK HOLD OF IT." It didn't take hold of him.

That’s not the best part of the story though. It was how the object was retrieved. You know, God is always concerned with the smallest details. Elisha used a stick to save and retrieve that that was lost. Old Testament revealed! Christ used the cross to rescue that that was lost and detached from the Master's hand. And isn’t it great what happens when the stick hits the water, which is symbolic of the Holy Spirit? Once the connection is made - the ax ascends! He was personally involved in the process. After all, he was responsible for the ax.

What an incredible lesson! A miracle has taken place. The glory of God is revealed. This son of a prophet has transformed from a student with a simple head knowledge of God into a servant with a heart knowledge and deep experience of God. Again, this was based upon the relationship established between his mentor! So, I end with this question? What’s at the bottom of your river that God can transform you from being just a student to an exceptional servant? Do you know Him? Or if you already do...do you long to simply know Him better?

Xxooxx

Traci

Jesus says, "Little girl, get up!"

Now, all week...I've parked my bicycle in the book of Mark. I'm reading it over and over again. Today's message was one of hope in such a hopeless and desperate situation regarding Jairus' daughter. Now, the crowd had thrown in the towel. Many said..."She's dead." Others stated, "Why bother?" Some even laughed. That's typically what the world and non-believers say and do. Sometimes, Christians too. Yet, Jesus told the mother and father...don't listen to them...but, rather...TRUST ME. I can only imagine how difficult that was to do. Now, I must say that I cracked up as I read further in one translation it says that they where bringing in the casseroles. Must have been Baptists! They were already grieving over the loss. Today, we would be discussing and ordering flowers as well. They were telling JESUS...He didn't know what He was talking about. Even as believers...we doubt. I know that I do. Yet, Jesus sent them out. Then, He took the mother and father and his "closest companions" and entered the child's room. I could only wonder what those on the outside were thinking about what was taking place on the inside. Isn't that the real questions? Jesus said, "Little girl...get up!" She did and that's when I saw how something so hopeless, so desperate...that will little life in it...turn into JOY. That's what was taking place inside. How do I get that conclusion? Because the passage talks about how they were ALL beside themselves with joy. Well, that's not all. Jesus then gave them strict orders not to talk about what took place. Then, He told them...give her something to eat. Interesting! She needed that nourishment afterwards. Now, I wondered several things about that passage. First, why did Jesus only allow her mother and father or His close companions inside the room? Why did He give strict orders not to tell anyone what took place? That's when it hit me! Those were his inner circle friends who ministered along beside him. He wanted to involve them, intensify their faith and answer that plea in which Jairus had to come to Jesus with. He longed to provide them with a miracle in which they needed. Remember, she was only sick...not dead. Yet, to most of us...we give up on the sick and let em' die. Simply move on after the loss. The second part that is intriguing to me? Jesus was already famous. Most were familiar or knew who HE was...but, few really knew HIM...much less experience HIM in this manner or way. Big difference there! It goes from a familarity and fame of who Christ is to a personal relationship in and with HIM. Finally, I remember the words of Dr. Robert Smith from Beeson Divinity University. He said, "Traci...the disciples were always sending the people away from Jesus. We don't simply send people away as much as we move away." I've never forgot his words. Well, I'm here to say...embrace HIM...in spite of our circumstance. Let's see HIM work a miracle in all of our lives too. I'm really excited over this passage. This story reminds me that He can turn our HOPELESSNESS into sheer joy. What a passage! What a Savior! So, what are you waiting on? Little girl, get up!

Have you read Numbers lately?

My friend, Have you ever asked yourself the question, 'Where do I go from here?' I've thought about that question since we celebrated Passover at my girlfriend's house. Can you imagine it? We've eaten in haste...fled the land...and are now located somewhere in the Wilderness with the anticpation of getting to the PROMISELAND! That is such an illustration of my life and passion at Mylonn Ministries during this very moment. We are on the move! I like to think that Callaway Gardens is somewhat a picture of the PROMISELAND for us! Oh...but what about the journey in between? Well, I'm glad you are thinking about it now. Exodus is such a great story and book! However, have you read the book of Numbers lately? Well, I'm there and talk about a journey! Last night, I sat down reading the first four chapters. I've read it lots of times, but last night the words were jumping off the pages. It begins by stating that it was the first day of the second month in the second year. Immediately, I crack up! Talk about EVENT PLANNING! Moses even marks the calendar. Then, begins by taking a census. He is numbering the congregation, writing down the names of men, registering the companies, establishing order and issuing specific tasks. He has established Dan at the North, Judah marching out front toward the East, Ephraim at the west and finally Reuben at the South. Hey, that sounds like our registration!!! Right now, we've got women coming in from TX, AL, MS, LA, TN, NC, SC and GA. Yet, the story doesn't end with chapter four. There are a lot of responsibilities and things that take place in between. Everyone helps in sharing the load. Just take a look at what Gershon, Kohath and Merari get to do. Besides, did you know that Moses used COLOR CODING? He did! I was amazed. He used solid blue and scarlet for specific jobs and tasks. Read it for yourself in chapter four. Finally, my passage last night ended with 'AND THAT'S THE STORY OF THEIR NUMBERING.' I love it! Don't you just love how that statement invites you to keep reading? If that's the story of their numbering...what's next? In closing, you are probably asking yourself a lot of questions. For example: WHY in this world is she writing me this? Earlier, I mentioned that there were a lot of stages throughout the journey. Everyone has something to do in planning this event for us to arrive at Callaway Gardens on October 10-12, 2008. That's our calendar date. However, there are preparations throughout the journey. Yet, everyone can help share in this load. How? Through prayer. WE NEED LOTS OF PRAYER. 1. Pray for our Speakers.2. Pray for our Staff at Callaway.3. Pray for our Volunteers.4. Pray for our Vendors.5. Pray for our Group Leaders.6. Pray for our Individual WOMEN!7. Pray for our Registrations and a FULL Retreat.8. Pray for our Administration.9. Pray for ME. I love you all so much. I can hardly wait to read the rest of Numbers. Yet, I also can't wait for the next generation of women to read what God has done, is doing and going to do in and through us at Mylonn Ministries. We are women ministering to women. I need you! Traci

Traci, is the role of a woman distinct? What's our place?

Yes, I do believe that the role of a woman is distinct. God did that. Why? Because the seed (Messiah) came from the woman (Eve) to bruise Satan's head. The woman is used throughout the entire Bible to point us to Christ. Then, the seed of Abraham through Sarah to inherit the promise. The seed in Isaac. The seed narrowed down through Leah and Rachel and her handmaidens to single out the Messiah coming from the tribe of Judah. Next, of the thousands of families in the tribe of Judah, God made another choice through woman...the Messiah must come from one family line, the family of Jesse. Thus, bringing about the seed of David through Ruth to establish the Kingdom. So, God used women to accomplish His purpose and plan all throughout history. He still does.

Here are more examples: There is Puah and Shuah (Egyptian midwives) who saved the babies in Egypt found in the book of Exodus. Puah and Shuah eventually helped in saving Moses. Moses gave us the LAW. Then, what about Zipporah? Moses would have been slain and buried if she wouldn't have circumcised him. She was used as a helpmate in preserving the COVENANT. There were women who helped in building the tabernacle that spun the goat's hair found in the book of Exodus. 'Women' provided the work of the curtains. There is Rahab...who delivered the two spies. There is the account of Deborah and Jael's military victory found in the book of Judges. There is Hannah who gave her son to God so that her son would prophesy to Israel about the prophet to come. She help to give us history in I & II Samuel. Again, we referenced Ruth the Moabite. I think she impacted Bethlehem and Judah in her day by giving us Jesse and KING David and our Messiah. Then, in the New Testament there is Mary who delivered the seed. What about Elizabeth? She gave us the forerunner who announced the seed! Or Mary and Martha, Priscilla, Aquilla, Lydia, Lois, Phoebe etc. who told about the seed. AND...the many women who followed Jesus witnessing the seed. Remember the compassion Jesus had upon the Woman at the Well? She later became the greatest missionary of Samaria. The world thought of her as a dog though and many wanted to destroy the seed!

Women weren't excluded from service or being used in uniting the kingdom's work. We are a great part of it! Even Saul dragged off the men and women of the church according to Acts 8:3. Women weren't just idle or sitting still. Matter of fact, they were impacting homes and communities too!

We are distinct. We are gifted. We have a significant place. We simply need to make sure our place is in Christ...and light the way in our homes, families, churches and communities.

Use your gifts!

Introducing "Teddy Maximus"

I would like to introduce you to the newest member of the Alexander household. His name is "Teddy Maximus" Alexander. I received him as a special 'gift' from Stephen at Christmas. Teddy is a small Yorkie. He weighs approximately 3-4 lbs. and is almost a year old. He has the cutest personality. We are learning so much from one another. However, there is one lesson that supersedes all. It's one of those defining moments.

Several days ago, we were at BSM office. Teddy Maximus loves to assist. He notifies me of all visitors. (Especially, the postman.) Our main door features a drop slot for letters. Our mail carrier drops the mail unless there is a special delivery. On this particular occasion, I was inundated with calls. Suddenly, I noticed that Teddy was missing from his chair. He was very quiet. Therefore, I began to investigate.

I turned the corner. There sat Teddy. He was motionless. His ears were lowered. He had a very sad countenance. We both realized that his name can also spell T-R-O-U-B-L-E. I knew from the moment that I beheld him that something was wrong. I asked, "Teddy Maximus, what have you done?"

I was suspicious. Slowly, I turned the corner. I was amazed. What a smart puppy! Teddy not only assists in gathering the mail, but also in opening it. Our mail was in a hundred pieces. Teddy confirmed each suspicion! I wasn't sure what to do. Do I scold him? Do I swat him with it? (After all, he already knew that he misbehaved.)

Quickly, I began picking up all the shredded mail. After all, he is my responsibility. However, I concluded that he must be disciplined. Discipline hurts. I swatted him with the shredded mail on the nose. I exclaimed, "No! No!" Then, I picked him up and lavished him with kisses. I reassured him that we were fine because both parties are learning. Soon, he climbed up in my lap. He sat with me throughout the remainder of the evening. What love!

Afterwards, I sat down. The Lord spoke to my heart. He said, "Traci, you do that! You like to assist in matters that I do not need help with. You have good intentions. Yet, when you put your hands into matters that belong to me...your name spells out T-R-O-U-B-L-E. I tend to deal with those same results. You make a mess. You even shred things that I've worked diligently on delivering. Quickly, you realize what you've done. You sit still. Often, you too become motionless. Your countenance changes. At times, you even lose 'your' joy. You do not know what to do. Then, I have to pick up the pieces.

He reminded me that I was like Teddy. He continued with these remarks, "You are my responsibility. Discipline hurts! No, means no!" Then, he did the same thing. He reassured me of His love and the necessity of learning this lesson.

In closing, God is gracious. He is also forgiving and patient. It is true. Teddy and I are very similar in our behavior. Yet, I find myself wanting to climb up in God's lap to enjoy His presence for the remainder of our evening.

xxooxx - BARK BARK

Teddy & Traci